I don't know why I hate myself so much today. I think that everything in my heart, my brain, and in my body aren't in tune. It sucks honestly, but I can't handle them. How can everything inside us aren't in tune if we are the only thing that have those of things? Lot of times I always confused. I thought that my heart always knew about something that's right or not right. And then my brain think of how I should be or suppose to be, but the problem is in my body. The body is always like that, show to the heart and the brain that the body don't wanna be that the heart or the brain want. I am in so much trouble about that. How I can't handle my body to be something that my heart and my brain want. How to handle my body to be that the what the heart and the brain want it?
How? Because I don't wanna ask why?
Surakarta, 6 September 2020
